I was waiting here for hours now, sitting at this table, my look was lost in the blur of boredom, the silence around me was broken just by the sirens of the city from time to time….
People were passing by me as if I was invisible, in the middle of the lights everywhere, all those ads, those buildings, I was little. But all those motions, those cries, those sounds were nothing compared to my loneliness, at the terrace of this bar, if was there, me, my heavy heart and my beer…
Everything was too big in this city anyway, people were like ants in an anthill, nothing but little workers, soulless, emotionless, as they were robots with a human shape…
OnceĀ I used to wonder if it was real, if all of this was just artificial, a big lie, the human race only a big joke in an empty space, alone in the universe as they say, but not even real, fake…
All this air shuffled for nothing, all those words meaningless and dull, and me in my own space, alone in the universe…
My breath is going slow, I cannot move my hands, they feel itchy, my breath stops, apnea is overwhelming now, my look become even more blurred, I feel the last heartbeats in my chest, two, one…The end…
Written while listening “My Terracotta heart” by Blur, not the lyrics, only the music.